Friday, April 15, 2016

focused forward: past the trial... past the pain

Hi everyone. As I type this, it is VERY early in the a.m. hours. I have just enjoyed a warm bubble bath to try and alleviate the sciatic pain that has been shooting down my legs. Also, I took a pain killer about fifteen minutes ago and am starting to feel it's drowsing effect, so I may have to make this post short and sweet. That said, I wanted to share with you my thoughts this morning.

As many of you already know, I struggle physically with my lower back. Over the years, I have receive many epidural shots filled with steroids to help lessen my pain and aid my endurance. That said, I always seem to be coping with much daily pain while living moment to moment and realizing that I must be deliberate and disciplined to exhale my breaths while attempting to find a comfortable position. However, even as I suffer, the Lord has continued to show up to reveal His light.  (Thank you, Jesus.)

A while ago, my doctor and I were talking about what pain medications I should be taking. This is the same doctor who has treated my life-changing injuries within the last decade. Needless to say, he has seen me at my very worst. Anyway, through the course of our meeting, my doctor commented to me, "Victoria, I have witnessed you endure a tremendous amount of pain every day for several years and still you seem so upbeat and positive whenever I see you. What's your secret?" I proceeded to tell him that strangely, being in pain somehow becomes familiar. In short, you just get used to the constant annoyance of being uncomfortable. Yet outside of dealing with these daily disabilities and shortcomings, God has graciously shown me the freedom that awaits ahead of me... past my trial... past my pain.

This morning in the tub, the Holy Spirit reminded me about this conversation with my doctor. While rubbing my legs in the hot bath water, I began thinking about all the "simple" things I take for granted in life - like the ability to walk. Sadly, I shouldn't have to be reminded of this... I should know and regularly acknowledge this gift! For walking is something I had to re-learn several years back from a former accident. I never want to forget how valuable it is to progress forward step by step. So, this morning I am in pain, but extremely grateful that my legs have been recently weakened from sciatica. Why? Because once again - even through the hurt, I am reminded to pause and give thanks for the blessing of being able to walk. (Thank you again, Lord.)

From a spiritual sense, all this has caused me to further consider the ever-present pain of sin in my Christian walk. You see, sin remains uncomfortably familiar in my every day on this earth. When I look to sin, it hinders and disables my progress for a new, healthy, holy life. But thankfully, God is always good. He continues to provide the solution of Jesus Christ - allowing me to see past my own corrupt human shortcomings and move forward toward His eternal hope.

So, today I am compelled to ask you also to consider this: How are you walking in your new life? Do you view each step as a blessing? Even past your current trials? Even past your present pain? Ladies, our Shepherd is waiting to lead us forward and out of our sin. He is ready to restore our souls no matter how intense our suffering. All other distractions, no matter how great or tremendous they may feel, are insignificant when compared to His glorious grace.

Will you look ahead? Will you believe His promised hope of good things to come? Can you rejoice and be glad no matter how difficult your pain? Can you acknowledge Him in all your ways? I hope so. For He has promised to direct your paths! He longs to restore your soul! He will lead you to the steps of His kingdom if you let Him... so let Him, and walk accordingly.

Today, my hope, my health, lies in the capable hands of the Great Physician... my Holy Comforter. Join me and let's choose to walk disciplined in faithful obedience to Him. Let's focus forward to His good, eternal kingdom and be deliberate to breath in His truths every moment of every day. His kingdom will indeed come. So, let's live enthusiastically in joy - for His will is already done. His plan cannot be altered. Our eternity and peace is made complete by His blood. So, let's walk in agreement and praise our King. Let's focus forward and see our Savior - past the trial... past the pain. Yes, let's only see the wonderful, perfect Savior. For our assurance is secure in His promise!

On Christ the Solid Rock I stand. All other ground is sinking sand.

My hope is built on nothing less
Than Jesus’ blood and righteousness.
I dare not trust the sweetest frame,
But wholly trust in Jesus’ Name.

When darkness seems to hide His face,
I rest on His unchanging grace.
In every high and stormy gale,
My anchor holds within the veil.

His oath, His covenant, His blood,
Support me in the whelming flood.
When all around my soul gives way,
He then is all my Hope and Stay.

When He shall come with trumpet sound,
Oh may I then in Him be found.
Dressed in His righteousness alone,
Faultless to stand before the throne.

On Christ the solid Rock I stand,
All other ground is sinking sand;
All other ground is sinking sand.
(The Solid Rock; Written By Edward Mote)

Therefore everyone who hears these words of mine and puts them into practice is like a wise man who built his house on the rock. The rain came down, the streams rose, and the winds blew and beat against that house; yet it did not fall, because it had its foundation on the rock. (Matthew 7:24-25)



© The Devoted Woman | Victoria Anderson


  1. So challenging. The Holy Spirit used this in a major way today to bring to light some areas that I need to surrender. I had no idea of your pain, Victoria......will be praying for you, my sister in Christ <3 Thank you for your faithfulness in heeding God's call. God is using you to bless many. May He be glorified for the gift of you.

  2. Victoria,
    Thank you for sharing your heart. It spoke to my heart as well. Right now I am dealing with grief from a miscarriage and uncertainty about whether or not I'll ever be a mother. Reading this gave me hope because it took my focus off of me and onto Jesus who has my future in His hands. Thank you!!!

  3. Thank you for this, I really needed it. I pray for your healing.

  4. Sometimes, our walk with the Lord gets tough, but we have trusted on no other One but,Jesus Christ. The words to; On Christ my solid Rock
    I stand all other ground is sinking sand is very appropriate. As women we carry so much, and I have found that God alone has sustained me. I am going through a valley but I know in whom I have believed. And maybe by tomorrow I will have reached Victory!

  5. Thanks Victoria. You are a blessing as always! :)

  6. Many thanks for posting this! Once again, such an elegant way of using your own experiences to reach out and express God's goodness and direction for our lives! Your strength IS amazing! You stand apart from others who fall to pieces at the sheer whisper of something uncomfortable, unfamiliar, or different... But there is HOPE in the Lord Jesus! He is our Counselor, our Healer, our Shepherd, to Him be all the glory!!!
    Thank you for teaching me how to walk in pain!!! Love and prayers going your way!!!

  7. Thankyou for posting this. I needed this. many blessing to you.

  8. Hi Victoria!
    I have similar medical condition to you. I am in pretty much constant pain from a couple of degenerating discs (having 5 kids did a wee bit of a number on me!). I also have spondylysis, and a fracture in my lower back due to one particular nadty beating from my husband back.when he used to be extremely violent. Since then, my back.has grown progressively worse, and last year, I started to get sciatica. I'm on pain medication all day every day.
    I best to continue on with my life and be productive, unfortunately, I can no.longer clean my house or do.other things I once enjoyed doing. By far the worst things are the flashbacks and nightmares I get sometimes due to the violence.
    But God did a miracle in our lives and our marriage. For 15 years, my husband abused me and beat me on occasions. I finally ended up having to take our 5 kids and esvapi.g to a womens' refuge. We were seperated for 10 months. I had an intervention order out on him, as well as several charges of assault. While we were seperated, God broke through to him, and he sought help. He found out he is bipolar and went on medication.
    We revonciled 10 mo.ths after we seperated. We both tbought tbe marriahe was over, but God made it brand new. Now, almost 7 years later, my gusband is a changed man! And I feel so blessed! There are times I cry bse my.back is so painful, and I'm waiting for surgery....but I'm learning patience and forbearance through it all. Dealing with the flashbacks and nigjtmares is taking a bit longer!
    Thanks for showing me I'm not alone!
    Bless ya!!
    Meg Wojcik!!