Wednesday, November 28, 2018

universal eternity versus the dim light of humanity

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.
(Proverbs 3:5-6)

I woke up thinking about these verses this morning.  I woke up thinking about a lot of things this morning.  For the state of our world..., the state of my own individual affairs..., the state of "today" is truly past my own understanding.  When I try to rationalize and make sense of why things happen the way they do... why events occur in the timing they do... I always come up frustrated and short.  I always come up with more "why" questions than actual answers.  

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart...   

I remember back in Chicago when Chuck and I took a good friend out to eat at a swanky, hard-to-get-into restaurant in the city.  We sat at our reserved table and looked them straight in the eye and asked, "Do you trust us?  If so, let us order dinner for you."  Mind you, this was a friend who was a very picky eater.  A person who would never ever leave their delicate palette and dietary restrictions in the hands of another.  And yet, knowing my husband and I well... knowing that we loved him dearly... knowing that we had entertained many clients and friends at these tables before... they decided that yes, they could indeed trust us enough with the honor of feeding them with (and I quote), "The BEST dinner they ever had!"

From this example, I search my own core on a much larger scale.  Do I trust the Lord with all my heart?  Do I trust that He will attend to my well-being and picky tastes with loving care and the truest of His good?  Do I believe He will quench my thirsts and feed my ravenous hunger with His very BEST?  Can I give my whole self over to His authority and management?  And if so... if I truly do trust Him, what does that mean?  Am I able to surrender what I know for what He knows?  Because He knows so much more, doesn't He?  His scope reaches universal eternity while my eyes struggle in the dim light of humanity.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding...

Yes, truly my own understanding is limited.  Because on my own, I can't see past life's tragedies.  I can't move forward from death, or terrorism, or corruption, or disaster, or illness, or whatever (!) without wondering those "why" questions again and again.  My understanding leaves me lacking and uneasy because it isn't a full picture of all that is, and was, and will be.  Sure, I may think a just and good God wouldn't allow such questionable trials to occur in the first place, but that would limit His wisdom to the parameters of my feeble rations, wouldn't it?  No, boxing God into the space and time of my own understanding would ignore everything that I do not and cannot know.  That is why He is God and I am not.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him...

Do I trust Him?
Do I believe He will oversee and reveal everything in His perfect timing?
Do I have faith that His Way is absolute, holy, and for my well-being and good?

If so, shouldn't I make every effort to know Him as my truest friend and confidant?  Shouldn't I look for Him in the "why" moments?  Sure, I can see His handiwork everywhere...  But seeing and really knowing someone are two very different things, aren't they?  Acknowledging that He is God, even through the moments I find myself questioning God most, gives His throne glory.  The focus is directed away from my horrors and instead toward His grace.  His hope reigns.  His help comes.  His mercies renew.

When I acknowledge Him, I progress closer to His presence.  When I acknowledge Him, He affords me the strength to trust Him over what I do not understand.  He teaches me that He matters most - through whatever is the worst.  He uses all things to prove over and over that, (1) My God will remain, (2) My God is good, and (3) My God loves me... always.

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.
In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths...

Do I seek after Him?  Do I acknowledge His importance?  Do I prioritize a personal, intimate, honest relationship with Him?  Does my life depend on His living manna?  Does my path follow the direction of His Word no matter the distractions I may face in this volatile world?

Thankfully, His Word is always on point.  It is sharp and ready to slice through every single one of my issues.  It is manageable for me to savor in small, digestible portions each day.  It is timely.  It is a most healthy, acquired taste.  And it is profitable for doctrine, for reproof, for correction, for instruction in righteousness.  It is available so that I may learn to become more like Jesus.  So that I might walk thoroughly furnished to do His good work... to be part of His eternal solution.

What is my purpose?

To trust in the Lord with all my heart.
To lean not unto my own understanding.
To acknowledge Him always.  In all matters.  In all moments.
To follow His guidance.  To seek Him first in every decision.  To abide in His stable, unchanging Word, so that I may know and do His good.

Friends, there is grace in the stability of the Lord!
Sure, heavy rains must fall in order for flowers to later bloom.
But He is God through every season.
He made and manages the conditions of every single seed so that we may take root in His kingdom.

Will you trust Him more than yourself?
Will you sit and eat at His table?

He will remain.
He is good.
He loves you... always.




© The Devoted Woman | Victoria Anderson

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